Thoughts & Theories on the Tango of life

I wait, I deliberate, what will be, will be, I procrastinate, why can’t I see, the energy’s inside of me, too deep for motion but causing emotion, shy I’m not, but why can’t I see?

I’m blinded by circumstance or is it just fear burning inside of me, why can’t it be?  I’m kind I’m caring, my life is worth sharing but why is life so foreboding for me?

I’m breathing but I can’t smell, 

I’m listening but I can’t hear, 

I’m looking but I can’t see,

I’m touching but I can’t feel,

I’m eating but i can’t taste, 

whats wrong with me? 

I am happy being me! I sense that something powerful is near.  I sense that something important is coming.  I sense that something is very different.  I’m growing, my soul is growing, I sense that I’m learning my path. In learning, my mind is expanding

I don’t understand yet but I sense that I’m being directed to a way of being that is beyond my comprehension.

I hope I have the capacity of understanding my path.

I read and I sense there is a deep message in each word I see.

I’m beginning to feel confident that what I choose to say to those around me, is the right time for these words, powerful words, loving words, spiritual words.

I thank my angels for this direction, it frightens me but I know they are guiding me and will protect me.  Whoever the me is supposed to be!  

Or am I just remembering the real soul of ‘me’! 

Pic courtesy of Celestial Inspiration 

It is good to recognise the value others have had on your life- it makes you appreciate the aspects of your journey that you hadn’t anticipated being an option in your life or even being an anticipated obstacle. 

Give thanks and gratitude for the wonder of life, even when it doesn’t look so wonderful. 

There is so much to be grateful for. Thank you! 

Fear is only in your head. Fear is really only a limitation we inflict on ourselves to feel better about a decision.  It’s you judging YOU! Remember that the next time you feel, say, or indicate that you can’t do or be something more than you already are. Everything is within your control and the things that are not, don’t matter, they are someone else’s business not yours.  

Fear is a challenge to overcome not an obstacle that can’t be moved.  

To live a life of love, light and joy is the ultimate goal and the only thing stopping most of us achieving that is a fear of either failure but most likely fear of success.  Because if you think about it, what would you do if you were successful, how difficult would that be to accept?  

My challenge to myself today is to release any thoughts of fear of success and accept that it is OK to be successful.  In fact it’s fun and rewarding. 😇

Happy 1st May! 

It’s March and the months are flying by. Were already offically in summer time in Europe and we’re getting lots of lovely sunshine so why do I judge myself as lacking in progress?  

I have achieved many goals since the beginning of the year ( albeit they were small but important achievements for my studies) and yet I still feel the social pressure to conform.  After being made redundant at the end of 2016 and recently finishing a 7 week contracting role,  the first question I get from others is, any luck with a new job?  Why the pressure?  Well now I feel the judgement of others is indicating that I should be making more progress. 

I know there is no point in me taking on a role where I cannot be myself or doing something I really dislike just to earn money.  I know because I tried that before and it made me physically sick.  Now I’m not prone to illnesses and the last time I was really sick was when I changed jobs 10 years ago. I accepted a new job that was just the wrong environment for me. I didn’t listen to my gut then when I should have and I followed a money trail instead.  The gut really can control your mind, there is a reason why the old wives saying “feeling physically sick to the stomach” and “having a gut feeling about something” have hung around so long – we relate to them emotionally. 

So whilst I believe everything happens for a reason and that we are where we are supposed to be, its very challenging to keep my focus on the success I know I’m achieving daily when others can’t see my vision or viewpoint. 

People mean well, but don’t realise that a minor throw away comment from others can create a major crisis within another, because we all judge ourselves more than we judge others.  And let’s face it we all judge others, whether its an attitude, an obsession, hobby or a piece of clothing – we judge, maybe not explicitly but certainly implicitly! 

I’m learning not to be so hard on myself but it is a challenge and it becomes more challenging when others question my actions ( or perceived lack of).  So why can’t I just feel happy with my own decisions and the position I find myself in my life right now. Who says I should have something different or more?  Social conformity, thats who and it is very difficult to stand from the viewpoint of outside the norm, even when we choose it. 

So for now, I focus on gratitude, I am blessed with good health and my parents are as healthy as can be expected for Octogenarians ( they’re doing pretty good!). My siblings are healthy and striving for their own life goals.  Most importantly I am forever appreciative of the love and support of my family and friends. 

So life is good, improving daily and I’m grateful for what has been, what is in the here and now and what has yet to come.  A slow and steady pace is better than running out of steam trying to win a particular race! 

Thank you 💗 

A new year is about to begin and with it a brand new chapter in my life. I’m excited and a little apprehensive to what comes next but I know it will all be wonderfully beautiful and beneficial to my journey in this world. I’m grateful for what has gone before even if I didn’t always understand why but I accept it has made me who I am today. Thank you to all those who have helped me on my path. 

Just one day, one breath, one tear, one laugh, one kind word, one kind deed = one life worth living! 

Always be at one with yourself, no one else will fully understand why you say and do the things you do. But they will always love you for being YOU! 

Joy & Happiness are the riches we all aspire to but the ego controls more of our thoughts than we care to admit. The ego looks for immediate gratification but its unsustainable long term, therefore leaving you less fulfilled than the riches of simple joy and happiness.  

on the journey into the light

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